Alcoholism Recovery & Treatment

I need to improve my self-esteem.

Husband and I fight alot, since he lost his job over 6 weeks ago. He uses verbal abuse and blames me when things go wrong and when he tired or in a bad mood when we argueing he sometimes threatens to hit me. When he gets like that I fight back. I have never called him a name. I don’t want to leave him because I love him and he hasn’t got much support. He suffers from depression. Before we met he used to be heavy into drugs and alcohol. I’m his first partner he had been with that he been clean. I know he doesn’t do drugs because he doesn’t go anywhere without me. I think he needs counselling but he says it a waste of time.

Because it numbs the messages your mind is sending to you. Trust me, eventually the drunk will wear off, and you are left with yourself again.
You have to realize that you are in control of your thoughts. No one else. Stop looking outside yourself for help. Check with your counselor about cognitive therapy. It can make a world of difference.