Alcoholism Recovery & Treatment

My husband of nine years completely flipped out on me today. I was in town, and told him I would be about an hour, I was with my older brother and younger sister and niece and nephews. Well after an hour he called and asked why I was still there. I told him I was just hanging out, and he said ” I thought you were just gonna be gone a little while”? Well i told him I would leave in about an hour cause I had to go to the store still. So he hung up on me. After an hour he called back and I told him i was getting the stuff he asked me to get at the store. When I get home I tried talking to him and he starts yelling at me so loud our two kids open the bedroom door to see what happened. I told them to go back out and he is putting on his shoes and everything, tells me he wants me out, he will call the police, grabs my keys and takes my car keys of my set. When I do finally get them back, I happened to find them an hour later, i went outside and he took all my cds and smashed them. So i took his keys, I shouldnt have, and when he asked for them I told him its not cool is it? You tried so hard to be in control of the car and when I couldnt leave you dont like it. My kids were both there I told them to go to their rooms, and he started yelling again before they left. I told him to calm down, he was scaring them, he called me a b*tch, and all kinds of other names and said I hope you die. He will not talk to me now, I dont know what to do and I am so frustrated because I dont know how to fix it. Hes been to rehab before for alcohol but I know hes not drinking and I dont think hes doing drugs. Any help??? I want to go to counseling but he wont go.
I dont think he is even considering cheating, I mean we have been together for so long. I have two kids, yeah I am a stay at home mom, but this is a very small town so if he even though I would think he would even accuse me of it before he got so mad. I know he will never be physical with me in a bad way its not his nature. we have been together 11 years so I am sure of that. But its just trying to figure out how to fix it.
Ok, he has never done this to me before, this is all new to me. After 9 years I will not leave him because he scared me by yelling. I am trying to find a way to fix it.
he went to rehab through a clinic, said we would go to counseling after he got out, he didnt like his counselor there, but he always had a reason why not to go. now he just wont go. as for alone time or anything I doubt that is it because he just made a point of telling me weeks before that he wants to go when he wants to go. I know he has problems with dealing with stress, we both do, i have epilepsy. he takes a couple prescriptions for them but I dont know if he is now taking them or not. He just doesnt tell me
We have never mesed around on each other or been in this situation before.

My ex girlfriend and I who dated for two years broke up about a year ago now, for many complicated reasons. The main one being my alcohol abuse. I seeked treatment and went sober for a good 9 months and started using about a month ago. I had a couple of pretty bad slip ups but I realized I did not want to go back down the path again and have cleaned up my act and am back in counseling. I am terrified of my ex finding out because we were thinking about trying to start dating again. If she chooses to stop talking to me and cut me out of her life again because of a couple slip ups and chooses not to support me, should I even want to be with a person like that? Its a bumpy road but I am doing everything I can to stay sober, I just feel like I should not have to worry about dissapointing her and have her support instead because I DO want to stay sober…If she cuts me out again, and chooses not to support me when I am trying to take the right steps, is it really worth trying to fix it?

Ruler: Mars / Element: Fire / Mode: Cardinal
Pole: Positive / Third: Primordial / Half: Subjective
Unbridled expression of your inner nature; activity that is self-motivated, unaffected by others; new beginnings, the start of new cycles, birth; enthusiasm and vitality.
Aggressive, willful, powerful, assertive; enthusiastic about whatever interests you at the moment, focused in short bursts, unlikely to sustain interest in the long term; ego expression; adventurious, pioneering; Warrior-type energy; impatient with having to cooperate with others, works best alone or in leadership role; unconcerned with approval or acceptance; lacks persistance and stamina; honest and forthright, “what you see is what you get”, not given to airs or pretenses; the first expression (or incarnation ) of spirit within a new cycle on the physical plane.
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Taurus
Ruler: Venus / Element: Earth / Mode: Fixed
Pole: Negative / Third: Primordial / Half: Subjective
Grounding, bringing down to earth; constancy, steadiness, fixedness; spirit becoming embodied, entering matter, taking on a form; a vessel or container for spiritual forces.
Earthy, grounded, in touch with the body; sensual, pleasure seeking; stubborn, fixed, stands their ground; focuses and concentrates energy, gives it concrete expression, practical, provides stamina and persistance; slow, steady, methodical; fertile, productive; unreflective, content to simply be; spirit becoming involved with the material world.
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Gemini
Ruler: Mercury / Element: Air / Mode: Mutable
Pole: Positive / Third: Primordial / Half: Subjective
Curiousity, cleverness, skill, communication; making connections with surroundings, trying to “figure things out”; the first display of intelligence by embodied spirit.
Talkative (”a Gemini is born with a telephone in each hand!”), communicative, sociable; loves to interact with others (at least on a superficial level); unemotional, impersonal, ruled by “rationality”; requires great mental stimulation, curious to a fault; playful, the Trickster, the Devil’s Advocate; changable, inconstant, attention easily drifts to something new, seeks novelty.
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Cancer
Ruler: Moon / Element: Water / Mode: Cardinal
Pole: Negative / Third: Primordial / Half: Subjective
Nurturing, support, belonging, emotional bonds; your roots, source, ground of your being; the unconscious, feelings, emotion; the Great Mother, Universal Womb; spirit’s first emotional attachments to the world.
Mothering, emotional and physical nurturance; experiences and imprinting during infancy and childhood; family, ancestors, heritage, relationships to the past; belonging, feeling “at home”; maternal love, caring; feeling supported by the world, that your needs are provided for; insecurities and fears if your needs haven’t been fulfilled; possessiveness, “twisted love”, inability to nurture others are negative expressions.
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Leo
Ruler: Sun / Element: Fire / Mode: Fixed
Pole: Positive / Third: Individual / Half: Subjective
Spirit entering the realm of the individual person; ego development, setting yourself apart from the rest of the world, becoming your own person; self-expression, being true to your inner nature, acting from the heart; dawning awareness of self in relation to others.
Ego, self-centered, arrogant; fixed, stubborn, persistant; artistic or creative expression as a vehicle for revealing “who I am”; needs to be a center of attention, requires acknowledgment and approval, likes to be noticed and appreciated (”ego-strokes”); personal integrity, true to self, honorable, trustworthy; kingly, self-assured, confident.
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Virgo
Ruler: Mercury / Element: Earth / Mode: Mutable
Pole: Negative / Third: Individual / Half: Subjective
Embodiment of the individual in the world; problems of adjustment dealing with the world and others; perfection of your approach to life, development of mundane skills; ability to change to adapt to life better.
Service, helping, self-effacing; perfectionist, always seeking to improve, efficiency; practical, functional, interested in crafts and projects; true to self in a simple, unassuming manner; reacts to defeats and setbacks by pulling back and altering approach, lacks confidence in the face of opposition; lives up to duties and responsiblities; interested in maintaining the body as a fit vehicle; diet, exercise, herbs, etc.; aware of conflicts with others, of the give and take required by life.
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Libra
Ruler: Venus / Element: Air / Mode: Cardinal
Pole: Positive / Third: Individual / Half: Objective
Spirit as individual entering into relationship with others; partnership, one-to-one relationships, meeting others as an equal, interdependency; encountering repressed parts of yourself through others (via projection); going beyond ego boundaries; peace, harmony, balance; social awareness.
Partners, marriage; learning how to get along peacably with others, treating others as equals; “I vs. You”, conflict, enemies; art, beauty, harmonious surroundings; distressed by stressful, inharmonious interactions; intimacy; people in counseling professions.
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Scorpio
Ruler: Pluto / Element: Water / Mode: Fixed
Pole: Negative / Third: Individual / Half: Objective
Transformation, change, ego-death, rebirth, transcendence; intense emotional involvement with the process of personal growth; movement from individual certainties to the “mysteries of life”; spirit breaking through the limitations of individual ego.
Intense, passionate, brooding, magnetic; stubborn, unyielding, driven by emotions; stands up for self, usually covertly, manipulates power; understands deeper layers of the psyche beyond the ego, unable to communicate this well leading to misunderstandings; intrigued by the “dark side” of life; the underground, people whose job involves going beneath surface appearances; sexuality, especially the transformative power of the orgasm; self-mastery, breaking free of illusory limitations, the Hero.
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Sagittarius
Ruler: Jupiter / Element: Fire / Mode: Mutable
Pole: Positive / Third: Universal / Half: Objective
Spirit moving beyond the realm of the individual into the world at large; becoming a member of a wider society; experiences that lead to consciousness expansion, being receptive to new points of view, wisdom, enlightenment; using your talents for the benefit of the greater whole.
Freedom loving, idealist, unfettered by “small thinking”; inspiration; religion, philosophy, the law; awareness of your connections to the rest of the world; can be distant from others, afraid to give up freedom, reluctant to be tied down; on the other hand, aware of the value of the social contract; enthusiastic, gregarious, generous; loves abstract, theoretical ideas, sees the big picture, ignores the details; in love with an ideal; foreign travel, liberating experiences.
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Capricorn
Ruler: Saturn / Element: Earth / Mode: Cardinal
Pole: Negative / Third: Universal / Half: Objective
Spirit’s attempt to bring about the perfect society, to create heaven on earth; making practical, efficient connections with others on the physical plane; ambitious, feels pride in accomplishments; concern with truth, reality, “hard facts”; relationship to authority.
Serious, determined, disciplined, focused; needs to play more; fathering, disciplining love; authority figures; seeks certainties in life, wants things “cast in concrete”; the Businessman, concerned with the practical relationships to support yourself within society; not interested in “blue sky” ideas, needs to bring theory into concrete reality; “knowing the rules and playing the game”; making a niche in the world.
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Aquarius
Ruler: Uranus / Element: Air / Mode: Fixed
Pole: Positive / Third: Universal / Half: Objective
Spirit’s attempt to create ideal relationships and organizations, based on freedom and cooperation between individuals; free-thinking, unorthodox, not shackled by outdated ideology; the perfection of society.
Even though ideas are often far-sighted, they can be held and expressed in rigid, dogmatic fashion (this is a fixed sign, afterall!); “everyone should be free to be just like me!”; idealistic, utopian; derives sense of identity from groups and their goals, tends to dominate them; impersonal thinking, detached from emotional considerations; produces “humanitarian without compassion”; friendships based on common goal.
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Pisces
Ruler: Neptune / Element: Water / Mode: Mutable
Pole: Negative / Third: Universal / Half: Objective
Surrender to the universe, to higher goals; ego sacrifice; compassion and empathy, selfless work; seeing the unity of all things; the ends of cycles, forming “seeds” for the next cycle of growth; spirit as individual dissolving back into pure spirit.
Mysticism, escape into the One; sees the unity, fails to make “normal” distinctions, often weak ego; victim, martyr, servant; tends to escapism, fantasy, drugs (especially alcohol), religion; very receptive, sensitive, even psychic; co-dependency, care-taking; withdrawn from the world; release from the world.

‘A Chosen Journey’ is a novel about a young married house wife and her dog Sam’ that were abused by her husband. She leaves home and goes to a Women’s Shelter where she is lovingly cared for. She takes a job at the Hospital across the Street from the Shelter and begins Psychology classes. She soon is promoted to being a Counselor for young adults that are addicted to drugs and alcohol. You will meet the characters in the story that will open your mind to the magic of life and to the horrors of life that some people choose to experience. There is devine intervention in this story that will make you sit up and think about the possibilites of change in your life through the God source working through you. These young people have the opportunity to change their lives with the help of Jenna Cramer and her friend Bree through counseling or the option to turn their heads and walk away. Bree and Jenna are very loving main characters that convince most of the young ones to choose change.

‘A Chosen Journey’ is a novel about a young married house wife and her dog Sam’ that were abused by her husband. She leaves home and goes to a Women’s Shelter where she is lovingly cared for. She takes a job at the Hospital across the Street from the Shelter and begins Psychology classes. She soon is promoted to being a Counselor for young adults that are addicted to drugs and alcohol. You will meet the characters in the story that will open your mind to the magic of life and to the horrors of life that some people choose to experience. There is devine intervention in this story that will make you sit up and think about the possibilites of change in your life through the God source working through you. These young people have the opportunity to change their lives with the help of Jenna Cramer and her friend Bree through counseling or the option to turn their heads and walk away. Bree and Jenna are very loving main characters that convince most of the young ones to choose change.